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The Official Newsletter of  Heart t’ Heart-- 
A Twelve Step Support Group for the LDS Community
 
January 2001                                           Volume 10 — Issue 1
 
Dearest Friends,
 
I am continually stirred up in my heart to remind all who attend Heart t’ Heart meetings that the ultimate "support" to be found in this particular "support group," is from our Father in Heaven and from our Savior, through our continuing efforts to pray, study, and "fast," (be abstinent. May I share some thoughts that came, this morning, in response to the following verse of scripture?

3 Nephi 13:18 – That thou appear not unto men to fast, but unto thy Father, who is in secret; and thy Father who seeth in secret, shall reward Thee openly.

As I rehearsed this scripture, this morning, I was instructed pertaining to this newly gifted abstinence I am experiencing. I see that it would be best if I were to keep the manner of it–the particular "way" I’m being given to live it, to myself–to not make a public deal out of it, but to let it be something that is sacred and private between God and myself. The results–the restoration to my true self–that is what I need to share publicly and the testimony that Christ is the one who has empowered this gift to come to me.

This is because everyone’s "fast," (abstinence, manner of consecration) is personal. In fact, it is one of the most personal things they will ever discover.

I see that each person’s weakness (addiction) and their discovering and embracing a way of living without that weakness is their own act of consecration–of consecrating their life and their will to God.

I see that by learning each other’s "way," we are running around looking in the wrong place for guidance as to how to work out our salvation (abstinence.) What we need to be doing is studying it out in our personal study and prayerfully seeking guidance from the Lord, trusting Him to bring us to the "way" that works best for us.

I see that the idea that we need to band together with other people with "our" weakness is not true, because it is not to them that we should be looking for answers or directions.

I see that it is good for us to come together to share the truth– that we all have challenges and that coming close to the Savior is the ultimate answer.

The Lord does work through other people. But we need to be aware of how easy it is to use this partial truth as the whole truth–or 99% of the truth–and never get around to seeking His Spirit and His Words directly to us. Support from other mortals is good–as far as it goes–and we should rejoice in having it. But we must never let it be a permanent end to our seeking guidance and solace. He–Only One. – C. H.

 
STEP STUDY–Step Three
 
I feel inspired to share a very powerful prayer out of the Big Book of AA, and my experience with it. I am very grateful to my sponsor for sharing it with me and encouraging me to use it daily. The prayer was introduced to me as part of working step three, two years ago. At that time I was clinging to the few shreds of my life that were predictable and stable following several major losses, including my marriage and my home. It frightened me at the time to turn over any more of my life and I realized that I would not be able to do step three instantaneously.

As I ventured into this step and began using the prayer, I felt strongly that I needed to let go of my job. I learned a lot about faith in this process. I was part of a miraculous orchestration that allowed me to move into a different career that has brought me so much happiness in my life. The career I had before was one I picked for myself, one I wanted, but one that drained me emotionally and left me little energy for my family. The career that God has picked for me is much more fulfilling, leaves me energized, and enhances my home life.

Turning my will and my life over was a step at a time, day at a time process. Learning the step three prayer was part of a gradual awakening and a transformation. A shift occurred from "my" will and "my" life, to God’s will and a life of much more fullness and completeness through Him. Before it was if I had a narrow view of life, one puzzle piece at a time, now I am seeing the bigger picture and the pieces coming together. It finally makes sense and I trust God’s omniscient wisdom so much more than my own ability to foresee and to know what is ultimately best for me. Cristy S.

Step Three Prayer
"God, I offer myself to Thee -
to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties,
that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help
of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!"

Alcoholics Anonymous, 1976, p.63

 
NEW MEETING IN IDAHO
 
We are happy to announce the registration of a new meeting, in Boise, Idaho.

The information for this meeting is:
Boise
— Thursday 7:00-8:30 pm
Call for location
Shirlene (208) 336-2777
<shell335@hotmail.com>

Welcome to our friends in Boise!!

 
DONATIONS FROM GROUPS–THANK YOU!!
 
We would like to thank the following groups for their recent donations to the General Service Office:

Location Meeting Description Amount
Logan UT Tuesday $5.00
Bountiful UT Wednesday noon $28.18
Bountiful UT Thursday evening $32.75
Mesa AZ Friday, Couples $100.00
Logan UT Tuesday $18.00
Logan UT Wednesday Women’s $60.97
Logan UT Wednesday Men’s $17.00
Logan UT Sunday evening $20.00
 
BLESSINGS FROM MEETINGS–
 
Some people say that teenagers are the most understood group of people. There are many books written by some important authors about the trials and tribulations of teenagers. To me, teenagers are the most misunderstood group of people.

Some of our best success stories are about teenagers! How many great people in our scriptures were teenagers! Think about it. From the Old Testament to the Book of Mormon, teenagers have played a very important part.

I have a concern about today’s teens. Are we doing enough to show them the right path? Do we really talk with them, or do we talk to them, without regard to their "so-called" immature thoughts and feelings!

We had a young lady (non-LDS) attend our meeting. Her mother heard about the meetings through a co-worker, and was in need of some help with her daughter who was an addict. This co-worker asked the mother to let her daughter stay with her family so that the young lady could attend our meeting. At first the daughter rebelled against this until she had a long quiet talk with a member of that meeting.

At first we thought the teenager was a statue! All she would do was sit there with a blank look on her face. To me she looked like the Mona Lisa, with that know-it-all smile. This went on for about two months.

One night the question was asked before the sharing part of the meeting: "Does anyone have a burning desire?" The young lady jumped up and said "Yes, I do! I want out of here. You all scare me!" You see, she thought that she was the biggest, baddest, "done everything" person in the room!! By her listening, she found out that there were people who had experienced things that she could not imagine.

After the meeting, she came up to me and asked me if we could have a talk. I told her we could, if there was someone else present. So to make a long story short, we got her mother involved and the people that she was staying with so that she could attend meetings. (This was during summer vacation.)

The young lady actually desired a clean and sober life, but if she went home, she would start all over again. Her so-called friends and the neighborhood she lived in made it easy to gain drugs. The mother wanted her to be a home and to gain employment after school to keep busy.

A promise was made to "keep in touch" by phone, which was soon broken because of one excuse or another, on both sides the young lady started her old habits again! Another meeting with the mother, and it was decided (with her daughter) that the daughter would live with her grandparents and attend school there. This way she would start off with a clean slate and not be labeled a druggie.

This young lady has been clean now for two years!! She does attend another meeting, twice a week. She says that she is ready to graduate from meetings about drugs to meetings about Christ.

She has found out that all through her struggle, she had the constant friendship of two people, Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, who did not judge her and gave her the strength that she needed to fight the various addictions she had. These are her words, not mine.

You see, we talked with this young lady and tried, tried, and again tried to understand her. We did not talk down to her, we encouraged her with our love first, then our patience, then our support. In all aspects of her recovery, we made it a group effort. Notice the word Effort.

Out lives have been blessed by meeting and working with this young lady. We pray that she will stay on the straight and narrow path.

– Dennis M.

 
REPENTANCE LEADS TO RECOVERY
 
I’ve often heard it said that the 12 Steps are baby-steps to repentance. No truer statement could be made. But, the truth is, repentance is only a part of what the 12-steps can lead us to.

In other words, repentance by itself is not all there is to recovery. Recovery is far more than the first intimations of repentance. Recovery is heart-deep repentance. It is a "mighty change" of heart, not just habit.

A person who takes an approach to repentance that focuses on their outward behavior–as well as the priesthood leader who’s working with them–can be very sincere in their assumption that change of action for some designated period of time is heart-deep repentance.

But then, because the change of action has been the main goal that has received the most attention and effort–with the spiritual changes relegated to lesser importance, the period of changed outward behavior inevitably falters. The repentant person is devastated. The priesthood leader is devastated. The person’s change seemed so real. What to do, now? How to trust the process and start again?

Even worse are the negative temptations riddling the person’s own thoughts about themselves. "I thought I had really ‘got it’ this time." "Everything was going so well. What happened? I must be the worst person on the planet. I must be a totally lost cause. I thought I meant it, this time–but I must not have. How can I ever trust any desire to change?"

And of course, Satan gets involved. He is the author of all active temptation towards degradation, discouragement and demoralization. "See, you didn’t really repent. Your were just pretending–lying to yourself."

And on goes the confusion and despair.

And all the while, the truth is that the person really did repent–at least in the traditional way that focuses on behavioral change. This focus on behavioral change is the direct legacy of the dominant theory of human change in the social sciences. It has colored our thinking for years. It goes like this: change one’s behavior and you will change one’s mind. Lay down new pathways through the neurological connections in the brain, form a new habit, and that’s all it takes. Then one’s mind will change. Then one’s beliefs will change.

Or will they? After four years of studying human experience, human environment, and human development (change), I have found that even in the most scientific circles the theory that outward or behavioral change amounts to genuine change–reliable, persistent change–is not supported. In fact, greater change is found in changing a person’s beliefs. When one’s beliefs change, their actions begin to conform to their beliefs. Why? Because actions spring out of our beliefs. Changed action does not ensure changed beliefs.

And so it is in the science of human behavior and experience. There is a growing movement toward the obvious–humans act out their beliefs. Change a person’s beliefs about themselves or life–whether it takes an instant or some longer period of time to convince them–once their belief changes their behavior follows.

"How can this be?" you might ask. Decades and decades of sincere and learned educators and teachers–even gospel teachers– have taught uncounted numbers of students (you and me) the idea of "change your behavior–change your heart"; create a new habit–that’s all it takes to change. How can it be that it isn’t true?

Let me see if I can draw a comparison with another scientific theory that has for decades and decades–nearly a whole century–been taught as if it were "the" truth. Do you remember, as I do, being taught in school that dinosaurs were giant reptiles, cold-blooded, slow moving, and dim-witted, without enough intelligence to care for their young. Like snakes and turtles they laid eggs and left them. Suddenly, in the last couple of decades the teaching about dinosaurs has changed 100%. Suddenly, the "experts" (who claimed to be experts in the 50's when they were preaching the "lizard" theory) are saying, "We were wrong! That was our best guess, then, with the evidence we thought we saw. But, now, we’ve found new evidence about dinosaurs–they were warm-blooded, swift, related to modern birds, not lizards."

I have come to respect science since I’ve come to the university. Most of them will tell you that nothing is ever proven in the pursuit of further knowledge, but is only the most recent best guess of interested, attentive minds. Lizards one century, birds the next. As evidence unfolds, true scholars are willing to adopt new realities.

Behavior is beginning to take second place to beliefs–even in the scientific study of human life. Science is, once again, finding the truth the prophets already offered us:

The Lord works from the inside out. The world works from the outside in. The world would take people out of the slums. Christ takes the slums out of people, and then they take themselves out of the slums. The world would mold men by changing their environment. Christ changes men, who then change their environment. The world would shape human behavior, but Christ can change human nature. (Ezra Taft Benson, "Born of God,"" Ensign, July 1989, p. 2.)

It is an exciting time to be a student of human development and family life. I have come to realize that to study "human development" and "family life" is my greatest joy–in this life and eternally.

I pray we may all allow Christ to change our hearts. I know a lifetime of focusing on my habits–even praying for His help with them–didn’t do it for me. The heart (what we believe) is the key.

– C.H.

 
LIFELINES –
 
One never believes other people's experience, and one is only very gradually convinced by one's own.
                                                – Vita Sackville-West

I long to put the experience of fifty years at once into your young lives, to give you at once the key to that treasure chamber every gem of which has cost me tears and struggles and prayers, but you must work for these inward treasures yourselves.
                                                – Harriet Beecher Stowe, letter to her twin daughters

There is a thin line that separates laughter and pain, comedy and tragedy, humor and hurt. And how do you know laughter if there is no pain to compare it with?
                                                – Erma Bombeck

Faith is the highest passion in a human being. Many in every generation may not come that far, but none comes further.
                                                – Ralph Waldo Emerson

 
PROGRAM FROM THE PROPHETS –
 
EDUCATIONAL VARIETY of SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE
 

When we hear of the singular events of marvelous revelations, which do truly come to many, according to the Lord’s purposes and designs–when a "shout" is needed and a whisper, for some reason will not do–we often become distracted by the lie that only that form of revelation is sufficient to bring us to know God. But that is far from true. God can work a Mighty Change in the human heart and mind, in fact He can instill a prophetic degree of knowledge in a person who is humble enough to receive it thus, by the consistent, persistent accumulation of "still, small, whispering" witnesses. This is the equivalent of the "educational variety of spiritual experience that is referred to on pp. 569-570 of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Here, in brilliant example, is the testimony of Joseph F. Smith, of his own spiritual journey of "recovery"–recovery of his pre-mortal assignment and spiritual reality:

"When I as a boy first started out in the ministry,"" he explained, "I would frequently go out and ask the Lord to show me some marvelous thing, in order that I might receive a testimony. But the Lord withheld marvels from me, and showed me the truth, line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little, until he made me to know the truth from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, and until doubt and fear had been absolutely purged from me. He did not have to send an angel from the heavens to do this, nor did he have to speak with the trump of an archangel. By the whisperings of the still small voice of the Spirit of the living God, he gave to me the testimony I possess. And by this principle and power he will give to all the children of men a knowledge of the truth that will stay with them, and it will make them to know the truth, as God knows it, and to do the will of the Father as Christ does it."

This is the endowment of Mighty Change that gave those early alcoholics the ability to walk free of alcohol once a day–day after day–and for all days–for the rest of their lives. It is a knowledge of the truth that stays with you.

 

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