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The
Official Newsletter of Heart
t’ Heart--
A Twelve Step Support Group for the LDS Community |
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| January
2001 |
Volume
10 — Issue 1 |
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| Dearest
Friends, |
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| I am continually stirred up in my heart to
remind all who attend Heart t’ Heart meetings that
the ultimate "support" to be found in this
particular "support group," is from our Father in
Heaven and from our Savior, through our continuing efforts
to pray, study, and "fast," (be abstinent. May I
share some thoughts that came, this morning, in response to
the following verse of scripture?
3 Nephi 13:18 – That thou appear not unto men to fast,
but unto thy Father, who is in secret; and thy Father who
seeth in secret, shall reward Thee openly.
As I rehearsed this scripture, this morning, I was
instructed pertaining to this newly gifted abstinence I am
experiencing. I see that it would be best if I were to keep
the manner of it–the particular "way" I’m
being given to live it, to myself–to not make a public
deal out of it, but to let it be something that is sacred
and private between God and myself. The results–the
restoration to my true self–that is what I need to share publicly
and the testimony that Christ is the one who has
empowered this gift to come to me.
This is because everyone’s "fast,"
(abstinence, manner of consecration) is personal. In fact,
it is one of the most personal things they will ever
discover.
I see that each person’s weakness (addiction) and
their discovering and embracing a way of living without that
weakness is their own act of consecration–of consecrating
their life and their will to God.
I see that by learning each other’s "way," we
are running around looking in the wrong place for guidance
as to how to work out our salvation (abstinence.) What we
need to be doing is studying it out in our personal study
and prayerfully seeking guidance from the Lord, trusting Him
to bring us to the "way" that works best for us.
I see that the idea that we need to band together with
other people with "our" weakness is not true,
because it is not to them that we should be looking for
answers or directions.
I see that it is good for us to come together to share
the truth– that we all have challenges and that coming
close to the Savior is the ultimate answer.
The Lord does work through other people. But we need to
be aware of how easy it is to use this partial truth as the
whole truth–or 99% of the truth–and never get around to
seeking His Spirit and His Words directly to us. Support
from other mortals is good–as far as it goes–and
we should rejoice in having it. But we must never let it be
a permanent end to our seeking guidance and solace. He–Only
One. – C. H. |
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| STEP
STUDY–Step Three |
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| I feel inspired to share a very powerful
prayer out of the Big Book of AA, and my experience with it.
I am very grateful to my sponsor for sharing it with me and
encouraging me to use it daily. The prayer was introduced to
me as part of working step three, two years ago. At that
time I was clinging to the few shreds of my life that were
predictable and stable following several major losses,
including my marriage and my home. It frightened me at the
time to turn over any more of my life and I realized that I
would not be able to do step three instantaneously.
As I ventured into this step and began using the prayer,
I felt strongly that I needed to let go of my job. I learned
a lot about faith in this process. I was part of a
miraculous orchestration that allowed me to move into a
different career that has brought me so much happiness in my
life. The career I had before was one I picked for myself,
one I wanted, but one that drained me emotionally and left
me little energy for my family. The career that God has
picked for me is much more fulfilling, leaves me energized,
and enhances my home life.
Turning my will and my life over was a step at a time,
day at a time process. Learning the step three prayer was
part of a gradual awakening and a transformation. A shift
occurred from "my" will and "my" life,
to God’s will and a life of much more fullness and
completeness through Him. Before it was if I had a narrow
view of life, one puzzle piece at a time, now I am seeing
the bigger picture and the pieces coming together. It
finally makes sense and I trust God’s omniscient wisdom so
much more than my own ability to foresee and to know what is
ultimately best for me. Cristy S.
Step Three Prayer
"God, I offer myself to Thee -
to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy
will.
Take away my difficulties,
that victory over them may bear witness to those I would
help
of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!"
Alcoholics Anonymous, 1976, p.63 |
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| NEW
MEETING IN IDAHO |
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| We are happy to announce the registration of a
new meeting, in Boise, Idaho.
The information for this meeting is:
Boise — Thursday 7:00-8:30 pm
Call for location
Shirlene (208) 336-2777
<shell335@hotmail.com>
Welcome to our friends in Boise!! |
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| DONATIONS
FROM GROUPS–THANK YOU!! |
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We would like to thank the following groups
for their recent donations to the General Service Office:
| Location |
Meeting
Description |
Amount |
| Logan
UT |
Tuesday |
$5.00 |
| Bountiful
UT |
Wednesday noon |
$28.18 |
| Bountiful
UT |
Thursday evening |
$32.75 |
| Mesa AZ |
Friday,
Couples |
$100.00 |
| Logan
UT |
Tuesday |
$18.00 |
| Logan
UT |
Wednesday Women’s |
$60.97 |
| Logan
UT |
Wednesday Men’s |
$17.00 |
| Logan
UT |
Sunday evening |
$20.00 |
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| BLESSINGS
FROM MEETINGS– |
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| Some people say that teenagers are the most
understood group of people. There are many books written by
some important authors about the trials and tribulations of
teenagers. To me, teenagers are the most misunderstood group
of people.
Some of our best success stories are about teenagers! How
many great people in our scriptures were teenagers! Think
about it. From the Old Testament to the Book of Mormon,
teenagers have played a very important part.
I have a concern about today’s teens. Are we doing
enough to show them the right path? Do we really talk with
them, or do we talk to them, without regard to their
"so-called" immature thoughts and feelings!
We had a young lady (non-LDS) attend our meeting. Her
mother heard about the meetings through a co-worker, and was
in need of some help with her daughter who was an addict.
This co-worker asked the mother to let her daughter stay
with her family so that the young lady could attend our
meeting. At first the daughter rebelled against this until
she had a long quiet talk with a member of that meeting.
At first we thought the teenager was a statue! All she
would do was sit there with a blank look on her face. To me
she looked like the Mona Lisa, with that know-it-all smile.
This went on for about two months.
One night the question was asked before the sharing part
of the meeting: "Does anyone have a burning
desire?" The young lady jumped up and said "Yes, I
do! I want out of here. You all scare me!" You see, she
thought that she was the biggest, baddest, "done
everything" person in the room!! By her listening, she
found out that there were people who had experienced things
that she could not imagine.
After the meeting, she came up to me and asked me if we
could have a talk. I told her we could, if
there was someone else present. So to make a long story
short, we got her mother involved and the people that she
was staying with so that she could attend meetings. (This
was during summer vacation.)
The young lady actually desired a clean and sober life,
but if she went home, she would start all over again. Her
so-called friends and the neighborhood she lived in made it
easy to gain drugs. The mother wanted her to be a home and
to gain employment after school to keep busy.
A promise was made to "keep in touch" by phone,
which was soon broken because of one excuse or another, on
both sides the young lady started her old habits again!
Another meeting with the mother, and it was decided (with
her daughter) that the daughter would live with her
grandparents and attend school there. This way she would
start off with a clean slate and not be labeled a druggie.
This young lady has been clean now for two years!! She
does attend another meeting, twice a week. She says that she
is ready to graduate from meetings about drugs to meetings
about Christ.
She has found out that all through her struggle, she had
the constant friendship of two people, Heavenly Father and
Jesus Christ, who did not judge her and gave her the
strength that she needed to fight the various addictions she
had. These are her words, not mine.
You see, we talked with this young lady and tried, tried,
and again tried to understand her. We did not talk down to
her, we encouraged her with our love first, then our
patience, then our support. In all aspects of her recovery,
we made it a group effort. Notice the word Effort.
Out lives have been blessed by meeting and working with
this young lady. We pray that she will stay on the straight
and narrow path.
– Dennis M. |
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| REPENTANCE
LEADS TO RECOVERY |
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| I’ve often heard it said that
the 12 Steps are baby-steps to repentance. No truer
statement could be made. But, the truth is, repentance is
only a part of what the 12-steps can lead us to.
In other words, repentance by itself is not all
there is to recovery. Recovery is far more than the first
intimations of repentance. Recovery is heart-deep
repentance. It is a "mighty change" of
heart, not just habit.
A person who takes an approach to repentance that focuses
on their outward behavior–as well as the priesthood leader
who’s working with them–can be very sincere in their
assumption that change of action for some designated period
of time is heart-deep repentance.
But then, because the change of action has been the main
goal that has received the most attention and effort–with
the spiritual changes relegated to lesser importance, the
period of changed outward behavior inevitably falters. The
repentant person is devastated. The priesthood leader is
devastated. The person’s change seemed so real. What to
do, now? How to trust the process and start again?
Even worse are the negative temptations riddling the
person’s own thoughts about themselves. "I thought I
had really ‘got it’ this time."
"Everything was going so well. What happened? I must be
the worst person on the planet. I must be a totally lost
cause. I thought I meant it, this time–but I must not
have. How can I ever trust any desire to change?"
And of course, Satan gets involved. He is the author of
all active temptation towards degradation, discouragement
and demoralization. "See, you didn’t really repent.
Your were just pretending–lying to yourself."
And on goes the confusion and despair.
And all the while, the truth is that the person really
did repent–at least in the traditional way that
focuses on behavioral change. This focus on behavioral
change is the direct legacy of the dominant theory of human
change in the social sciences. It has colored our thinking
for years. It goes like this: change one’s behavior and
you will change one’s mind. Lay down new pathways through
the neurological connections in the brain, form a new habit,
and that’s all it takes. Then one’s mind will change.
Then one’s beliefs will change.
Or will they? After four years of studying human
experience, human environment, and human development
(change), I have found that even in the most scientific
circles the theory that outward or behavioral change amounts
to genuine change–reliable, persistent
change–is not supported. In fact, greater change is
found in changing a person’s beliefs. When one’s beliefs
change, their actions begin to conform to their beliefs.
Why? Because actions spring out of our beliefs. Changed
action does not ensure changed beliefs.
And so it is in the science of human behavior and
experience. There is a growing movement toward the obvious–humans
act out their beliefs. Change a person’s beliefs about
themselves or life–whether it takes an instant or some
longer period of time to convince them–once their belief
changes their behavior follows.
"How can this be?" you might ask. Decades and
decades of sincere and learned educators and teachers–even
gospel teachers– have taught uncounted numbers of students
(you and me) the idea of "change your behavior–change
your heart"; create a new habit–that’s all it takes
to change. How can it be that it isn’t true?
Let me see if I can draw a comparison with another
scientific theory that has for decades and decades–nearly
a whole century–been taught as if it were "the"
truth. Do you remember, as I do, being taught in school that
dinosaurs were giant reptiles, cold-blooded, slow moving,
and dim-witted, without enough intelligence to care for
their young. Like snakes and turtles they laid eggs and left
them. Suddenly, in the last couple of decades the teaching
about dinosaurs has changed 100%. Suddenly, the
"experts" (who claimed to be experts in the 50's
when they were preaching the "lizard" theory) are
saying, "We were wrong! That was our best guess, then,
with the evidence we thought we saw. But, now, we’ve
found new evidence about dinosaurs–they were warm-blooded,
swift, related to modern birds, not lizards."
I have come to respect science since I’ve come to the
university. Most of them will tell you that nothing is ever proven
in the pursuit of further knowledge, but is only the most
recent best guess of interested, attentive minds. Lizards
one century, birds the next. As evidence unfolds, true
scholars are willing to adopt new realities.
Behavior is beginning to take second place to beliefs–even
in the scientific study of human life. Science is, once
again, finding the truth the prophets already offered us:
The Lord works from the inside out. The world works from
the outside in. The world would take people out of the
slums. Christ takes the slums out of people, and then they
take themselves out of the slums. The world would mold men
by changing their environment. Christ changes men, who then
change their environment. The world would shape human
behavior, but Christ can change human nature. (Ezra Taft
Benson, "Born of God,"" Ensign, July
1989, p. 2.)
It is an exciting time to be a student of human
development and family life. I have come to realize that to
study "human development" and "family
life" is my greatest joy–in this life and eternally.
I pray we may all allow Christ to change our hearts. I
know a lifetime of focusing on my habits–even praying for
His help with them–didn’t do it for me. The heart (what
we believe) is the key.
– C.H. |
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| LIFELINES
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One never believes other people's experience,
and one is only very gradually convinced by one's own.
– Vita Sackville-West
I long to put the experience of fifty years at once
into your young lives, to give you at once the key to
that treasure chamber every gem of which has cost me
tears and struggles and prayers, but you must work for
these inward treasures yourselves.
– Harriet Beecher Stowe, letter to her twin daughters
There is a thin line that separates laughter and
pain, comedy and tragedy, humor and hurt. And how do you
know laughter if there is no pain to compare it with?
– Erma Bombeck
Faith is the highest passion in a human being. Many
in every generation may not come that far, but none
comes further.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
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| PROGRAM
FROM THE PROPHETS – |
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| EDUCATIONAL VARIETY of SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE |
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When we hear of the singular events
of marvelous revelations, which do
truly come to many, according to the
Lord’s purposes and designs–when a
"shout" is needed and a
whisper, for some reason will not do–we
often become distracted by the lie
that only that form of
revelation is sufficient to bring us
to know God. But that is far
from true. God can work a Mighty
Change in the human heart and mind, in
fact He can instill a prophetic degree
of knowledge in a person who is humble
enough to receive it thus, by the
consistent, persistent accumulation of
"still, small, whispering"
witnesses. This is the equivalent of
the "educational variety of
spiritual experience that is referred
to on pp. 569-570 of Alcoholics
Anonymous.
Here, in brilliant example, is the testimony of Joseph F.
Smith, of his own spiritual journey of "recovery"–recovery
of his pre-mortal assignment and spiritual reality:
"When I as a boy first started out in the
ministry,"" he explained, "I would
frequently go out and ask the Lord to show me some
marvelous thing, in order that I might receive a
testimony. But the Lord withheld marvels from me, and
showed me the truth, line upon line, precept upon precept,
here a little and there a little, until he made me to know
the truth from the crown of my head to the soles of my
feet, and until doubt and fear had been absolutely purged
from me. He did not have to send an angel from the heavens
to do this, nor did he have to speak with the trump of an
archangel. By the whisperings of the still small voice of
the Spirit of the living God, he gave to me the testimony
I possess. And by this principle and power he will give
to all the children of men a knowledge of the truth that
will stay with them, and it will make them to know the
truth, as God knows it, and to do the will of the Father
as Christ does it."
This is the endowment of Mighty Change that gave those
early alcoholics the ability to walk free of alcohol once a
day–day after day–and for all days–for the rest of
their lives. It is a knowledge of the truth that stays
with you. |
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